Not Sane

That could somehow be the thread that connects many aspects of my life right now. Things are a little crazy in my realm sometimes. Karyn called today in tears because her life wasn't satisfying her, she feels empty and doesn't know what she's doing with her life. This happened while I was hanging out with my little niece Tia painting with water colors, which I have to admit I hardly ever get a chance to do, and it was a great time. I felt quite free from worries while painting within the lines of the walrus I was coloring!
Ima had a decent morning until the nurse showed up to move the location of the morphine pumps needle, and her subsequent visit freaked Ima out and exhausted her. After the nurse left the pump got stopped somehow and started beeping and alerting us to a problem, but it took a while for us to get the nurse on the line to get help with the situation. Meanwhile ima had a minor freakout. Finally we fixed the pump and she got a little shut eye before the Sofer-Geri family arrived.
Tamar kept looking and me asking what was wrong, with her old standard: "you don't look happy" routine. It's a little annoying because she has a way of looking at me for two minutes and deciding that. Then there was a shopping trip I went on, which I was sort of weary of because it included food for Tamar and Co. It seems to be hard to satisfy people these days with products, and no matter what I buy, I might get chastised for not getting quite the right product. Ima is particularly to blame for that, but other people are too. That's one of the reasons I seem to be spending time moving stuff from Nomi's house to my house, from my house to Ima's house, from Ima's house to her car, from Ima's house to my house, and back again. It's maddening!
The visit was fine, but I got roped into staying for dinner, which was kind of what I had planned but then I thought they wanted me to leave, so I was going to go pill shamoo and maybe shower and shave in JP and get K some last minute goodies, but now i'm going to have to improvise those tomorrow somehow. I'm glad I got most of what I needed ahead of time; it's just that there are a couple of bonus gifts I can think of to get her if I can swing by a record store....
Then tomorrow is going to entail a bunch of running around and then not waking up with Karyn to spoil her on Xmass morning, which is really going to bum her out, I think. It's important to have the presents wrapped and at least out the night before so that she can see them in the morning before I come back from weymouth. Meanwhile, i'll get Saturday day and night with karyn and I'll return to Weymouth on Sunday afternoon. What a schedule!