Cleaning and more

So we've been emptying Ima's house for a while now - usually on Wednesdays. It started out being very difficult but has been getting easier as time goes on, partially because we've gone through the more difficult personal stuff already, and partially because we've gotten better at figuring out what needs to be kept and what can be let go. Today I was affixing a certificate of authenticity to an engraving and I found a note Ima had put on it saying that it should be given to phyllis - that was kind of cool because it was kind of like her speaking, and kind of creepy because I didn't actually know that and didn't expect that. I forgot a little how difficult this process is, and how I have to be guarded - and that's what's been happening. I'm burying a lot of pain - I realized today driving by a funeral home that if I ever have to go to someone's funeral I will be crying as much for them as I will be for Ima, because I never really expressed my pain at Ima's funeral. And the funny thing is that those feelings are right below the surface, not far at all!
Some good news is that I'm getting some work based on my own talents and not just through Q - it's not a huge crush of work, but I've been a little more busy lately and the building of the studio is going to make this a good summer.